NeNek KeNaL sAyA???

khamis malam lepas tgh syok2 baca intrend mak kiter melaung2 panggil kiter dr bwah...mcm ada hal penting giler...
"org Pekan call, nenek sakit teruk.., kiter baliklah malam nie"
dan bermula dr situla mulanya weekend yg sgt berbeza dr weekend2 yg lepas...
nenek dh tak kenal org2 yg ada kat depan dia...kalo sblm nie kalo ada saper2 yg balik diala yg paling kecoh..."dah balik org jauh nie..." "balik dengan saper nie???" padahal dh sah2 kiter nie mestilah balik ngan mak n ayah...tp khamis malam lepas, time aku sampai nenek dh terbaring...
"nenek kenal saper nie??""
"tak...saper nie??" rasa nak meleleh air mata dgr suara lesu tue...
tp kadang2 nenek ingat n kenal jugak org...ahad lepas time kiter sampai, nenek ada tanya
"nie baru sampai dr KL ker???ada class??" maknanya nenek ingat tp most of the time nenek dh tak ingat...ada sekali nenek pernah tanya kat Mak Ida
"awk nie duduk kat mana??"
nenek dh tak bole bjalan mcm dulu, dah tak bole makan mcm dulu, dh tak bole mem'buang' mcm dulu, nenek dh tak berleter mcm dulu, nenek pun dah jarang senyum...hhhmmmmm.....
semalam ayah ham ada buat birthday party aisyah...even nenek sakit tp dia still nak bgn, duduk atas kerusi roda dia sambil senyum2...makan cake sampai satu pinggan habis..kiter suka tgk nenek mcm tue...tp tak lama, nenek dh penat...nenek nk baring semula...penat katanya...
sampai hari nie keadaan nenek still mcm tue...kadang2 ingat, selalunya tak...
hidup nie mcm roda..satu pusingan lengkap...mungkin itu ada phase yg perlu kiter lalui biler sampai waktunya...tp kiter sgt yakin, dlm melengkapi pusingan roda tue, nenek sgt bahagia dikelilingi anak2 cucu2 dan cicit2 yg pelbagai ragam termasukla kiter...yg sgtsgt kiter pasti kiter syg nenek mcm mana nenek jugak syg kiter...
semoga nenek cepat sembuh...amiiinnnn

Age is Juz A NumBer????

setuju tak kalo kiter ckp age is juz a number...
sbb pada kiter mmg age is juz a number. ada org umur dah 28 tp berpikiran n act mcm bdk2 umur 17, tp ada jugak org yg umur 17 tp act n berpikiran mcm org dh 27..
pd kiter yg lebih penting apa yg kiter dh capai dlm umur tue...pengisian kiter dlm hidup nie...tue yg tentukan umur kiter...secara subjectifnya...
secara biological of course la changes will go according to age..muka tetap ada wrinkles biler umur meningkat...tue mmg tak bole nak elak kn???
tp ada jugak org ckp age definetely is not juz a number...
rationalnya, people will still look at u semacam if at ur certain age, u r still single or u r 40 yrs old but still a clerk with the same salary.....age give a big factor in our life..pinjam kata2 sena...
well, each people have a different view...
apapun, bersyukurla sebab dgn umur maknanya kiter masig dberi peluang utk menghirup udara dan melihat dunia pinjaman Allah swt nie....

iNSoMNIa

recently nie mcm ada masalah tidurla...kul 10 lebih mengantuk giler tp time kul 2 am mcm nie mulala mata nie tak bole nak lelap....maybe dia tau kot, student mcm kiter nie tak bole tido byk2...
dh start new semester...result pun dh kluar...alhamdullilah...even a little bit dispointed sbb tak dpt 4.00. have to try harder n harder...
tup..tup..dh 3rd semester.sekejap jer rasanya, it's not that bad. sem nie ambik 3 subject. sem depan tinggal lg 2 subject pastu focus on project paper...may 2010 MERDEKA...MERDEKA....MERDEKa....AMIN...

baru add mas dlm facebook, lama giler tak jumpa dia, rindu plak esp kat kenangan2 time kat shah alam, time duk umah sewa, time masak2 (mas, rindula ko punya ayam masak merah), time beli lauk kat pasar malam, ingat kat nasik kerabu pasar malam seksyen 17 tue, ingat time mula2 belajar naik lrt dulu..seronoknyer time tue...seronok giler...
"life is so amazing..it transform people, like what he did to me"

out of the moon

out of the moon, i got a massage juz now from somebody who i never heard about her for a quite some time...mula2 irritate jugak, he hurt me a lot...together with his mom...heheheh
tp ada org pernah ckp kat aku..
"bile kiter ikhlas melepaskn org tue pergi..dgn sendirinya kiter akn rasa ketenangan tue"

am i that sincere???hhhmmmm....IKHLAS...seriously...it not that easy at the beginning...of course...but then everything goes very well...untill today...in fact, i think it good for me as well...kalo tak mesti aku takkan dpt apa yg aku ada skrang...entah2 aku dh kendong anak 3 4 org n kena jd housewife yg comot...heheheh...i can imagine that...gooossshhhhh....
we keep sms's at this moment...n the last sms sound like this
"nk tgk gambar anak n wife aku tak??" my heart refuse to see the photo...why should i see it...it nothing has to do with my life anymore...n suddenly it make me think..OMG am i that IKHLAS???am i jealous???

while i type this..i already got the photo, the photo of a happy family..hhhmmmmm...

almost 1 year....

cepatnyer masa berlalu almost 1 year tak sentuh n langsung tak update blog nie...
hectic with study n work..but now is my semester break.

N I'M GOING FOR ANOTHER ISLAND VACATION.....yahoooo......in a way to get my open water diving license just like i wish when coming back from perhentian last year...

tp open water diving manual tak habis baca lagi...huhuhu...

"we must have a dream before we can make it happen" i always have bunch of it...

My BuS RiDe

bus ride, alone, looking at da star make my mind wandering 'bout my life, my past time, old frendz, experiences n my future...
what i want in my life????life is about when we have it, we want more....
mcm kiter lah...dulu nk sgt further master, n now when i juz started my study, i keep thinking, WHAT NEXT???
hmmmmm....but there's one think i still wait for...a mutual relationship with a guy that perfect me..i found one, i guess..but maybe he is not belong to me, even no matter i really hope( i guess also or at least at this point of time)
I'm still searching n hope to find it, perhaps within my time frame...
not bcoz i have to, bcoz i need someone to share.. n i know i'm ready now...

Msc Finance, UUM

juz received an offer letter from UUM last 3 days.at last dapat jugak aku further study after almost 2 years asyik tangguh jer..hhmmmm...takut pun ada jugak...mampu ker???my works..my study..my activities (penting tue), financial lagi...a lot of things to think..hopefully i manage to go through..duration of study 3-10 semester, perhaps i can complete by 5 semester @ 1 and half year. perhaps..perhaps...
dgr org further study abroad, mcm best jer...i never have a dream nk study abroad sebenarnyer...but i have one now..tgklah PHd nnt ker...amin..
but at that time, make sure i have my own family (kids mayb...heheh)

"life is full with coincidence, even two parallel line can meet"